About the book
For Rory, the challenges of adjusting to the ordinary pace of civilian life after the intense rigors of war inspired him to construct a well-planned and strategic method for his own survival. A loner by nature, he gravitates toward a career that limits his interactions with people. Running, weightlifting and boxing consume some of the adrenaline he still feels an excess of, and maintaining a strict regimen daily helps keep his head above water and his thoughts partially occupied. Except the days it doesn’t.
When unexpected tragedy derails his fragile sense of control, he begins a downward spiral. With little in the way of family and only a few close friends, the lure of taking what looks like the easy way out is made all the simpler.
To forever say goodbye to his own suffering and that of those whose memories he carries, is a very compelling motive for opening the escape hatch of suicide. Being forced to live through another day of pain and trauma is more of a hell than dying, he is sure of that. The tyranny of hopelessness has all but laid claim to Rory, when an outside influence presents a new challenge. Suddenly his what is, is being challenged by what if? But hope can be an intoxicating drug, and one that lowers your defenses and makes you vulnerable again. Rory must decide if what will become the fight of his life is worth the effort, when succumbing and adding his number to the 22 a day, seems so inviting.